this is the 24th post. im thinking if im a friend to anyone. i really mean anyone. suddenly its like, things are fading away. not the way it used to be, never going to be anyways.
its going to be a lonely valentine's day. and its going fine, since im always alone. it doesn matter much anymore. im fine with the way it is. its dumb but true. so im gonna live with it until it changes.
everything has been random lately, but its all facts of my life. either you take it or leave it. its always like that, and never gonna change. i guess everyone has their own problems. not like im the only one on Earth. selfishness, procrastination, lier, inconsiderate... thats all part of me. really, adding all of them up equals to me. well, the real me. not the one you see everyday laughing here and there. not the one you see everyday screaming here and there. yes, that's me. believe it or not. believe it. believe me. when everyone thinks im good, kind, whatever...im just not.
when someone saw through something in me, my heart turned dark. i felt like running away and never returning. but i had no choice but to smile back, acting all me. well, its me. just a fake one.