he's always there, getting crowded by girls. i always thought to myself, he still loves you secretly. though thats a lie, it still kept my heart really warn and fuzzy. that feeling kept my heart alive... its no longer just there beating, pumping just to live on. its there for him totally!
god knows what happen, my best friend suddenly told me she like him. a lot. suddenly, my world crumpled like a cookie being stepped on. my heart skipped a beat. i thought i would instantly fell unconcious and eventually die. but, i lived on. i wanted to show myself that i could easily give up on him... i wanted to help my best friend to get that best guy in the world even if it meant me being heartbroken. things weren`t easy. everyday, looking at them... holding hands, talking to each other, whispering to each other. i thought it won`t matter anymore, cause my heart's dead but it helped another heart to get alive.
everyday, im missing him more. i thought i like him more then her... but why weren`t my feelings returned?
my best friend started sticking to him, she wasn`t what she used to be anymore. on phone, she would just kept on talking about him. saying what they're saying on SMS-es. true, i was envious of her...but i was even mad at myself for getting envious. pausing for a second, my eyes welled up... everything began clear.
not saying whose wrong and right, they should just continue their story exactly like this and i should continue my story again. differently. my heart started pumping again...
i led on my life. trying to find the right guy. nothing seems wrong, but i noticed something... everytime, i accompany my best friend for a date, he's there with him.
should i try it out with him? but i heard that he has a girlfriend... he said that they're breaking off soon because she's migrating soon. i thought this would be my perfect chance.